One Date, Two Destinies: A Book Release

Hello, everyone!

Happy Malaysia Day to all of you who are from Malaysia!

On another and related note, those of you who know me probably know that I am a big fan of Lee Kuan Yew. 

Well, that’s a bit of a small understatement. I mean, it would have to be for someone who was somehow so moved that he decided to write an entire book about Lee Kuan Yew, which is by the way exactly what I did. 

This Malaysia Day, 16 September, I’m very happy to announce the release of “One Date, Two Destinies: Lee Kuan Yew and the Birth of Malaysia and Singapore”, at a (Malaysia Day) discount!

Pick it up here or here:
https://victortanws.gumroad.com/l/september16th 

Also, here’s a sample that you can have a look at to preview the contents!

This was a fun project to engage in, writing about the entire track of Lee Kuan Yew’s history from his birth up until the end. 

I think it is crucial to look back at the past to understand history better, and this is one of the first things that a person will understand, I think, if they look just a little bit beneath the surface of Malaysian history and that which we call Malaysia. 

I don’t think that there is quite a project that is like this, but I think that it was an extremely fun one – It contains many of my own personal reflections about Mr. Lee and the role that he played in Malaysia and Singapore, and in our shared history together, one that was born from a time of what can rightfully be called trauma. 

I hope that you will find it meaningful and valuable for your own personal development and growth even as you reflect on these stories. 

Thank you for your support in advance if you would like to purchase the book!

Yours, 

V.

Human in an AI Age.

As Claude Fable is released into the world, I think we have hit a critical point that has made me reflect and recognize that being a human in the AI age… Is just flat out weird.

Look at the world around us now. 

You open emails, and they’re written with ChatGPT – you look at comments on Facebook, and they are AI slop made to prove a sloppy point.

Once upon a time, “art” was human – you could confidently look around the internet and say that the pictures, the artworks, the memes were all made by other humans. 

What does it mean to live in an era where to create is not to prompt ourselves inward, but to prompt ChatGPT? 

In a world where we are told that we can produce anything that we want (whether blog posts, reflections, videos, or ideas), perhaps we are either forgetting or never learning that we discover new things through the act of creation. Ideas do not just form spontaneously, and they are not taken out of the box that is our mind. If it were so, then we could think of the mind as a series of tiny workers unloading cartons inside a warehouse, as opposed to a conveyor belt system to unload the very same. In reality, it is not so.

As humans, we do not just unload things. Instead, we polish the products that we create, none of which is just a box but the small work of art, the fruit of our consciousness, to ripen and to grow – something alive yet imperfect.

We are like centaurs, say the critics – only now instead of humans atop horse bodies, we sit atop technological marvels built upon the most sophisticated computers in the world; but what happens when we steadily move from prompting ourselves to prompting the computers into prompting the computers to prompt themselves, and eventually abandon the very idea of prompting itself in leaving our minds to their own devices?

We appreciate that which is human, that is true – we seek authenticity and we laugh when Ronnie Chieng says “Fuck AI” repeatedly at the pulpit that is the Harvard University graduation dais; it feels that there is something intrinsic, true, and immutable about that wish for human connection and want that can never be replaced by the machines…

…Then you realize that you could very well produce a Ronnie Chieng diatribe of your own with ChatGPT and Claude and begin to ask yourself what being human actually means. 

Granted, it is true that even the fact that you can see this right now is the fruit of a technological collaboration. If not for the internet, which would not have been possible 40 years ago, you would not have seen your first bulletin board posts without connectivity. You would have never seen your best mate’s drunk texts or been able to browse funny cat videos on TikTok.

All of this that we look to when we remember a so-called human age is and has been nothing more than a single blip, a technical aberration in the technological history of mankind, but I will say this.

In our era of AI slop, it feels a bit like these are some of our last days watching that unique historical moment in that technological history; it feels like the last days of seeing humans create for humans on the internet.

But our feelings can also sometimes lie to us – as the fact that this blog post was entirely human written after my morning coffee attests. 

This was my human attempt to manage some of these thoughts, and it is necessarily incomplete; the slop is evolving, and it will not be disappearing anytime soon – it is the going concern of our era, and if this internet isn’t dead and you live and breathe and think as well, it is one that I, you, and everyone else who’s still human will continually engage with. 

Splitting Focus 

One of the things I really wish I could do is split my focus into two. To have my brain just divide up my attention while I’m focusing on other things simultaneously. Wouldn’t it be nice if I could just read that manga while at the same time understanding everything that I’m doing and being able to perform, nonetheless at 100% efficiency, even though I’m looking at something else?

Right now, for example, I’m looking at Islands of Stars and Chains and trying to see if I can write a full essay while creating this document, speaking to myself while the words appear on the page. Is it possible for me to actually create anything of depth while I’m doing that? I would hope so, but it seems to me that there would be a sacrifice of the quality of content that I might produce along the way, in the middle of creating this kind of piece, just because my attention is not completely there and I am trying to understand multiple things at the same time.

Is it a skill, or is it just the case that I’m gaslighting myself about my ability to actually do this kind of thought splitting while reading the manga that I’m reading? I don’t know. It would actually be nice if I were able to just create while splitting my thoughts, never really thinking too much about what I create, because that would imply that my effective time spent just creating would be able to double – That even in the midst of leisure I’d be able to train and create and just enjoy the things that I enjoy looking at.

I don’t really know if it’s possible to do that. I imagine that the less you focus on actually pushing yourself into the deeper states of mind, the less you’d be able to so-called multitask. I also think that if you were truly focusing on everything that goes into creating the finest product, you might get a better result, but I’m not so sure anymore. Sometimes it’s not just about having the deepest focus, but it’s also about being able to function in the middle of your distracted thoughts. That’s true of each person, I think, to different degrees, but I wonder if there’s a sustained trend that I’m supposed to be able to logically apprehend.

I remember reading in an online course by Yale University that sometimes having unstructured thoughts come together is key to producing things. Ideas do not come about just by sitting down and having things blend together through sustained focus. There is a space for that kind of sustained thought, but there is also a space for the kind of free-flowing thinking that comes with functioning in the moment, anticipating completions, and seeing what seems logical in that moment.

I might imagine that they are fundamentally different systems, but I often wonder if it is possible to integrate them with one another, or if there is a porosity between them that training and skill can develop. I do not know the answer to that question, but it seems wonderful to imagine a scenario where I could just speak out extremely informational, conceptually powerful, and rhetorically powerful pieces from my head with nothing more than the impulses of my mind trained on creating whatever comes next as my eyes close and I recite what perhaps was always meant to be said, as the late poet Homer did in taking inspiration from the muse.

Perhaps that is wishful thinking, or perhaps it is not. At bottom, scientists have theories, empirical verifications, and all sorts of other tools. Statistical patterns reveal genuine realities, but they can only speak to a limited degree about individual capacity. What truly are my limits, and if they do exist, what hard bounds do they place on my ability to speak, to function, to draw out parts of my intellect or soul which I had not sought out before?

I would love to be able to let my shower thoughts take over and just talk to the screen while creating project after project, feeling like I’m not really working even as I’m working. Maybe that’s a piece of wishful thinking.

Focus is important, and it has a role. All too often, just being distracted doesn’t cut it. You do have to give your heart and your soul into it.

Maybe that’s something that does happen to be possible if you reach a certain level of skill where everything goes on autopilot after an escape velocity is reached, and your ability just skyrockets – You can create what you want to create in a time that you have to create it, without even thinking about it. I think that would be absolutely wonderful. I don’t know if that’s possible, though. 

Who’s to say?

A Small Thought On Equilibria

As you know, I recently lost quite a lot of weight, maintaining all of my muscle ever since the beginning of the year – people consider it a great success and I do as well, but the question arises:

Why did I have to lose weight again in the first place?

It was because I fell off.

Succeeding at something is always temporary, it is fleeting; the person who becomes fit, intelligent, strong, or rich occupies the position only for a brief while, whether “brief” in the sense of the 70+ year median lifespan that notates the lease on a human existence, or for the months or years that attend complacency after the euphorias of success.

From trying to lose weight and succeeding and losing it again, I’ve come to realize that life is about our little equilibria – the things that we maintain and keep up at little mental cost because they are habit; the things we repeatedly do so much to the point that it’s unthinkable that we wouldn’t do them; the workout, the music practice, the sales process, the managing of people, the filming, the socializing – everything is about those little equilibria and refining them.

I was able to cut down from 79kg in November 2025 to 69 in March because I understood that fact, and I managed to live it out – but does that mean that I’ve managed to reach an equilibrium?

Could I repeat the set of activities that have led to my being able to achieve this result without thinking about it, without worrying, without even considering the question of whether I need X, Y, or Z with no deep application of effort because it all comes naturally?

I think I need to grow along the way to make it happen, but I think we’re getting there 🙂