Capability.

It’s another one of those little occasions where I feel compelled to write down something; I suppose it would be different if I were committed, heart, soul, mind, and body towards the writing enterprise, but I admit that I am not there yet – but this morning, during this rare interstice of writing whim, I do feel compelled to say this:

I feel a lot more capable lately.

Maybe it’s because of the combination of the systems and the way that I think about life, the actions I take, and the way that I practice and coordinate things, but things have gotten a lot more efficient, and I find myself able to do far more than I used to be able to do, with less time, and with better results.

Is that a given for everything I do now in the present and the hereafter? Not really.

Am I considered “good” to all the levels that I might aspire towards?

Certainly not. I struggle with many things – far too many, in fact, and in some areas I would still consider myself positively lame.

But as the late Hans Rosling once observed, and as I paraphrase, things can be bad but still be becoming better.

You’re getting there, son.

Keep it up. 🙂

You Can Never Step In The Same Stream Twice.

Fun quote?

I agree.

The little patchwork-mind-lizard-brain network inside my head revealed this simple phrase to me in the morning.

Somehow or another, it retrieved this quote from the depths – and that act of retrieval, I suppose, redounds to the truth of the statement.

When Heraclitus wrote these words…

Well, who am I to write about Heraclitus really, when all I know about the guy is a few Google searches and one or two AI overviews?

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Either way, what I believe Heraclitus to have said (ok that’s better) is that life and existence is in constant flux – that those we encounter in that flux never are the same, though they may appear a little bit different here and there.

I’m thinking about this from the many choice examples in my life that I could use to illustrate a bit of that to those of you who have been following the journey.

In the past few weeks, I have done some of the following things, arranged in no particular order:

  • (Re)-learned Ableton
  • Gone to a new church
  • Pole danced with a pageant queen (LOL)
  • Made, remade, lost, re-encountered, new friends
  • Speaking of stepping, since this blog post is titled “You Can Never Step In The Same Stream Twice”, changed my steps so that now we have… Whatever this is.

The point is, change happens and it happens fast; often, it happens faster than we can chronicle it, both on the level of who we are changing into and what the world is changing into (and we’re not even considering what we’re changing the world into!) so much so that trying to capture every single change is an exercise in futility when perhaps our faculties are better used towards coping not only with the inevitability of change that we see in this world, but the interlinked reality that we are changing at every given moment and thus in being given these moments, summoning them to bring out the versions of ourselves whom we see as aligned with the higher goods and the moral sources that condition us.

I wonder what version of you is reading this blog post today, and I wonder what version of you will read this a day from now, a week from now, or years from now if this site either exists or is archived and made into viral memory because someone would like to cancel, celebrate, or immortalize me in the crystallization of a thought against the algorithmic rancor of a couple billion fractured attention spans?

I look forward to meeting you later, dear reader. 🙂

What Are You Willing To Suffer For?

It hit me this morning that as human beings, we are suffering creatures.

After all, suffering is basically written into the very code of all existence; to exist itself is to go against entropy, to summon together the forces of energy against decay, life against death – to work to create in a world of other people’s eyes and ears and judgments and socialities, minds in the full simulacrum of our brief temporal moment; to think and plan in a world of social relationships to do good and bad, right or wrong, ever to refine or polish, to push forward into the void, or to push against fate and the results of our own inaction.

Whether it is currency, social esteem, attraction, mates, or a future, a person is likely to suffer for these things; and if one is so lucky as to not suffer for one of them, one is likely to suffer for other things.

What are you suffering for today, and what are you willing to suffer for?

Are the things that you are suffering for things you deserve to suffer for?

Are they things that you truly want, or are the things you suffer for things that merit that suffering?